I turn 30 this year.
30 feels like it is the first year where you are supposed to have a better handle on things. Maybe I’m supposed to be doing what I’m going to do for the rest of my life. Should I have an established career? Should I have children? Should I get married? Should I know my morals and values and what I stand for?
Life is ever evolving, ever growing, and ever-changing. I don’t want to be the same person today that I was yesterday. If I’m always making the same mistakes, I’m not learning and I’m not growing.
To answer my earlier questions, I don’t know if I should be doing those things, but I have done many of them. I am married with two children, I have a career and I have my own set of standards, morals, values, and things that I stand for. I think that’s a good start.
There are hundreds of articles titled “30 Things To Achieve By 30 Years Old”, etc. I am not interested in those things. I’m not interested in adding more pressure to my already pressure-cooking life. Along with all of society’s expectations of women today, my family has expectations of me and I have expectations of myself. What really matters, is not a to-do list to check off before my 30th birthday, but the way I feel about myself and the life I created when I’m blowing out the candles.